Mood: Stoned.
Listening to: Jesus, Joy of Man's Desiring.

-covers his face with his hands-... I swear, I am living in some strange days. This morning, I had a dream that God gave me a cassette tape explaining everything in the universe... and I'm not concerned about the fact that I met God or anything, but the fact that it was a cassette tape! I mean, it's kinda reflective of the fact that we might be looking in the wrong places for the simplest of answers. Like, we have 6GB DVDs holding digitally enhanced cinematic features, and everything in the infinite universe is contained on a simple cassette tape.

I am either having a breakdown or a breakthrough. Unfortunately, they both feel the same. I have had a few of both. Perhaps I could be on the verge of an emotional and/or spiritual growth spurt. Something... that could revolutionize the way things are. But then, does that mean I'm a martyr? I don't want to die for cause that I don't choose to belong to! And right now, I'm searching, very desperately, for something to belong to or to believe in. I want to change something. I just don't know what...